friends?

Sometimes I wonder who my real friends are... 

I know that sounds totally cliche, but honestly, one minute you blow me off and act like you're so much better than me

The next we run around and dance and laugh like we never stopped being best friends.

I mean, is my best friend the girl I've known since I was 5 and have called my best friend since then? Would she even say the same thing about me?

I have a lot of friends, and up until a few months ago, I thought I knew who my best friend was.

Now I don't have a clue.

There are people I've known for as long as I can remember and I know we're friends, even if not close friends.

Then there are people who I have called my best friends for years, and sometimes I wonder if they'd even mention me if they were talking about their friends.

And the worst part, is I couldn't say this to any of them.

I'm too worried about hurting people's feelings, I don't want to make anyone uncomfortable, and I can't stand confronting anyone.

All my thoughts stay in my head.

I know I should stop, because I know I can't just push the thoughts away, 

I can hide them, and push them to the back of my mind, I can put up a wall to block them, but they don't go away.

They stay there, hidden in the back of my mind until it becomes so strong, that wall can't hold it anymore.

They come back, and with a vengeance. 

It's all even worse when it comes back, I end up bursting out in tears or blowing up in someone's face.

I hate it 

but somehow I can't bring myself to stop doing it.

can any of you relate to this?

xoxo

Molly

p.s. I know this probably stinks, It's 10 PM and I realized I hadn't posted anything :/

ups & downs {#3}

- thumbs up -

Tailgate party and sleepover with my friends tonight!!! :D

Finished reading the Percy Jackson series :)

Strawberry lemonade (Seriously, this stuff is amazing)

It finally feels like fall <333333

Looking at my Uganda pictures 

- thumbs down -

Having friendship issues that I'm too afraid to even mention to them :/

My phone hates me.

My room is a mess but I'm too lazy to clean it.

Feeling like no one would listen to you anyway.

Missing my Uganda </3

Through my Lens {#3} [uganda style]

So...

I forgot what I usually did on Thursdays, so I looked at my schedule and saw Through my lens...

I thought, oh that's right! Then I realized...

I haven't taken a single picture all week.

That's right, not a single one!!

But I couldn't leave you guys with no post now could I? 

So I went through the photos on my laptop and decided maybe you'd like some old photos :P

Considering they're of these precious kiddos...

... I thought maybe it would be alright :)

So here ya go!

***

These kids are my loves forever and ever, being with them makes my heart full, leaving them makes my heart shatter

Love, Uganda.

xoxo

Molly

he's a girmoose

Hey people!

Today I wish to tell you about one of my favoritest stuffed animals that I own.

You know, because stuffed animals are awesome and deserve their own post when they are even more awesome than a regular stuffed animal.

Duh.

Anyway, his official name is George, but mostly I call him my Girmoose.

Why do I call him that? Well take a look at my little friend in the above photo, what animal does he look like?

I'm gonna take a wild guess and say you probably said he looks like a giraffe, am I right?

Well look again, what important characteristic of a giraffe is he missing?

That's right, he doesn't have a long neck.

And he has antlers.

He has a moose's body, with a giraffe's markings.

Meaning obviously, he is a girmoose.

(At one time me and my friends came up with his official "scientific" name, but I can't seem to remember what it was now D:)

I'm gonna be honest, I seriously love this little stuffed animal, I mean, isn't he adorable!?!?!?

He's super soft and squishy and just the cutest thing ever!

I love to hug him and squeeze him :P 

If you also wish to hug and squeeze Mr. George the Girmoose, I give you permission to show up at my house simply to do so.

That is all.

stargazing

Do you remember,

 when you wished upon a star?

That first star you saw, that one was magic.

In our heads, that little star, a million miles away,

could make every with come true.

I can't tell you how many times I wished for something petty and selfish.

Almost every time, I wished for that new toy that I wanted.

I sit here, years later, wondering what my wish would be now.

If I could still will my heart to believe that it could make my wish come true no matter how big.

Would I be petty and selfish?

Wish for something new?

Would I wish for my puny problems to go away?

I'm a selfish first world child, no matter how hard I try to not be.

Or would my wish be something bigger?

Would I wish for something for our orphanage in Uganda?

Would I wish for enough stuff, and enough time to finish the Christmas presents we need done for them all?

Or would I wish for something for a friend going through a hard time?

Would I think bigger?

Would I wish that there would be no war?

Would I wish that world hunger was gone?

Would I wish that every child would have a loving family?

I consider this, wondering what my wish would be...

Then I stop.

I realize that wishing on a star will do me no good, 

why should I think about making a silly wish?

Wouldn't it be better to think that there's actual hope in your wish?

Wouldn't it be better to ask the one who has the power to make it happen?

Why don't I ask my God?

Isn't he more powerful than the star that He created?

He made the constellations and the beauty of the stars in the sky.

My thoughts and wishes should go to him, not to a non-living ball of gas that certainly isn't listening.

But God is, he hears our every thought.

He hears our every wish,

so stop wishing on a star,

and direct them toward him.

And when you look up to the sky and see the sun, the moon and the stars—all the heavenly array—do not be enticed into bowing down to them and worshiping things the Lord your God has apportioned to all the nations under heaven

Deuteronomy 4:19

ups & downs {#2}

- thumbs up -

going to the zoo! :D

my brother came home last night <3333

My books should be coming in the mail on Monday!!

Looking at baby girls clothes *Sigh*

picking out doll stuff to give to my cousin :)

- thumbs down - 

This is late!!! D:

Waiting, waiting, waiting....

I only get to see my bestest friends once a week, twice tops.

We can't watch the UofL game on TV!? 

***

Sorry this is late!!! We were really busy yesterday! I actually had a hard time picking out things for thumbs down, my life is too great, hahaha!

Though my Lens {#2}

Through my lens {#2}

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